There are moments in our lives when we feel undeserving of love, happiness, joy, and hope. We grasp onto regret and distance ourselves out of fear that the past will replay itself and the progress we make will vanish. The ideologies of what’s true and false become blurred, and we lose the ability to navigate in a clear and purposeful direction. Driven by terror and distrust of ourselves, we become hopelessly stagnant, and self-sabotaging becomes our way of life.
I once believed that I held no value and that my self-worth was abolished by the opinions of others. My confidence was stolen and shattered to the point of never feeling as though I would ever be equal to anyone. I placed myself below everyone with the expectation that second to none was an unachievable standard held not for the likes of me. This all led to the unavoidable decision that would forever stamp that time in my life.
Humbled and in dismay, I dropped the mask of pride and started to discover that by searching places I’ve never been and allowing things I’ve never done, slowly, I started to make headway. I searched diligently for answers and accepted truths I’d been afraid to even consider. I left no stone unturned and held an open mind and open heart. There were no wrong answers as each one led to self-discovery and admittance that I had been lost all along. Slowly, I began to rebuild who I was to become and let go of the version of me I had once known. I began to understand what it means to truly love myself and find a path in which I can continually grow and share my life with another, knowing that trust, happiness, joy, and love do exist.
The Wandering-Mind 